11 October 2006, 7.29 pm gametime, 3.29 pm my time. I arive at Big Chef, where I am told that ANNABELLE is, though she is clearly disengaged. I wonder, once again, where is everybody? Am I the only player here today? This loneliness, both within the world of the game and in terms of lack of feedback for this documentation, makes me anxious about the point of writing these pages. Stefanie Kuhn, Michael Wright and Nick Kaye are, I think, my only readers now – or, at least, the only ones who have said something about it lately. I feel that I am too immersed in the writing to have an idea about its usefulness or value. I am no longer sure that I am finding out anything useful for myself. I feel tired by it, trapped in it, and short of things to say. Part of me just wants to stop writing. I think of Tim Etchells and Forced Entertainment and remember that the whole point is that I must continue. Maybe, as I fall apart in the writing, something interesting will emerge.
15 October 2006, 12.05 pm game time, 8.39 pm my time. I arrive at Big Chef. This also is shut.
